I am just sitting here waiting for my medication to kick in so I can head to bed.

Filling the time with games on pogo and cafe world on facebook…lol

Tomorrow I head for my EKG a lovely series of tests to make sure my ticker is ticking properly before they cut me open.

6 days to go til I head in for the surgery and I don’t feel any less fear then I did when they first told me I was going to need it done.
I can’t seem to get past the whole IV thing, I am deathly afraid of needles and have heard nothing but horror stories about veins collapsing, needles breaking in the hand and burning pain that makes you feel like your dying.
Bugger bugger bugger I wish I didn’t have to go through this.

Laugh all you want, I know I am not going to die or anything but I still have these mini panic attacks when thinking of them jabbing me with that thing.

Anyway… here’s to hoping my ticker ticks just fine