Today My spirit is broken, I feel the dis-pare.
Try to keep moving forward but you hold me back there.
I feel tired, I feel drained. All at once I feel the pain.
These are the days I feel I go completely insane.
I do my best to keep my head held high.
But you have this way to bring me down, I know not why.
Sometimes I think I should just let you go.
But I fear with out you I’d know not where to go.
With each little jab a piece of me dies.
I don’t know how long I can live with these lies.
I try and pretend that I just don’t care.
But your words are like knives that can cut thin air.
Sometimes you wonder why I lash out and scream.
Its because I’ve held back and suddenly I’m mean.
I can’t be honest with you and say how I feel.
You’ll turn it against me and make a big deal.
Don’t misunderstand most days I feel loved.
You just have this thing where you push and shove.
I truly want to see you happy, But I don’t think you can.
Your stuck in that place I just don’t understand.
I tried to make your world become bright.
Sometimes I fear it’s to far from sight.
I see you struggle with your own pain.
I can’t fix you and that’s such a shame.
You must understand that I need to move on.
Rid myself of the demons they’re almost gone.
I’ve worked so hard to get where I am inside.
I can’t have these feelings where I feel I have died.
Come on my journey, together we can succeed.
You know I’ll always be here when you need.
Let me go forward and take you along.
Together we can make each other strong.
If you can’t you must understand, I’ll go onwards.

(c) July 9th 2010 Tammy Frederick