Well it’s late yet again and it’s the 3rd day in a row that I’ve been unable to sleep.
But tonight is not for the same reason as the last two nights.
I’ve had a prescription change and I was taken down on the one drug that actually helped me sleep, so …

ever have those days where you catch yourself in a mirror or see a photo someone took of you and say oh my bleepin god?
Yep that happened to me today and it took everything in me not to ball like a friggin baby.
I have to keep reminding myself that this …

I need you to be patient.
Know this is all new to me.
I need you to know I’m scared.
Know my heart has been broken.
When I am with you I feel on top of the world.
When your gone, I long to be next to you.
I don’t know quite how to deal with …

so for the past couple weeks I have been having random and more frequent panic attacks even though I am on a number of medications to control those.
I use to have them daily and the weirdest things could set them off and send me into a wild roller coaster ride, …

OK so I am dying to ask this question because it’s only really ever happened to me once before in my life and that first time things went belly up..lol
When is it ok to get excited about a new relationship?
Should it be right from the start? or is there like …