so for the past couple weeks I have been having random and more frequent panic attacks even though I am on a number of medications to control those.

I use to have them daily and the weirdest things could set them off and send me into a wild roller coaster ride, Then with the medication and therapy I’d learned to control them almost to the point where I was having none at all.

Some might see it as being paranoid … heck I think even I do from time to time but for the most part it’s this overwhelming sense of emotion that is hard to process through.
It’s this feeling of being unable to breath like suffocation, The chest tightens and my breathing becomes hard.
I’ve lost control over controlling the attacks and at their worst they can almost knock me on my ass.

I’ve been going through my own stuff lately and I think it’s dragging up a lot of old emotions and it’s those old emotions I have to re learn to control.
But when new things come into your life and they bring up old you don’t foresee it happening your just going along with these new things and woopsie daisy an old emotion stops in for a visit with out warning.

Everyday is a learning process for me, and as I begin a new chapter in my life and it happens to bring in these old feelings I will take the steps I need to in order too regain control.