I’ve been somewhat sad the past few days and I am not really sure why.
My poor son has not been feeling well either which makes me even more sad to know I can’t help him.

I have so much going on in my life at the moment lots of it being very exciting but it still seems at times I feel empty.

I am being paged lol so I guess I will say bye from the phone for now.

Sometimes I just feel like I am the only one listening.
And it’s not fun talking to myself.

Don’t get me wrong, my opinion is the only one that really matters it’s just not all about opinions.
I share so much of myself with people and sometimes I wonder why I bother, Do I even really make a difference? Does what I say even matter? Does anyone even care?

It’s lonely sometimes, Sometimes when I feel that loneliness I come and I write or I vlog or I make something for someone and maybe I expect too much?

I think a whole 5 of my friends have ever been to my blog.
I keep it because sometimes (like now) I need to let my hurt out because when I bottle it up it just makes it all worse.

I’d really be interested in seeing just how many people even bother to read this……

But sadly that’s not the case for some out there, I’ve said it before but I will say it again and yell it from the top of my lungs if I have to .. JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN GOOGLE IT DOES NOT MEAN YOU CAN USE IT!

I am starting to see these so called designers who don’t ever buy copyright material to use in their work they simple just take whatever they find in a search engine!
This is illegal plain and simple!

And pardon my next comment … but it’s not just their ass on the line for using it if you BUY it from them and then use it your ass is on the line too!
Yes YOU, you can be fined for using material that you have not purchased rights to use.
You can play dumb all you want, if an artists is serious they will haul your ass into court!
And if it’s a big company like music or movies or cartoons or tv your going to be in even more trouble.

Many people think they have every right to use images of actors or musician because they are in the spotlight.
INCORRECT! you can be sued not only by the photographer who took the photo but by the celebrity your using.

You can play stupid all you want the fact is if they want to sue you they are going to and there is no dumb card you can throw in a court of law, theft is theft plain and simple.

It frustrates me as someone who spends THOUSANDS of dollars to make sure the images I use are legal and spend just as much buying materials so that my mom AN ARTIST can make them!

Next time you go to buy graphics online make sure you know what it is your buying.
If you have any doubt about copyrights ask to see proof that they have permission.
If they can not provide that or can not provide the name of the artist who originally did the work then walk away.
It’s not worth getting your ass caught in a sling.
Don’t be afraid to call someone out on their theft either!
Think of the original artist and how much time, money and effort went into creating each piece.
Even photography is not free, Most photographers spend thousands on that perfect camera, and even more on lighting, props, backgrounds etc.

Think of it this way, Would you walk into a bank and rob them of their money?
No so why rob an artist of the money they earn as a living?

Hey all you dudes out there, Want a sure fire way to KILL your relationship?
Want to know one thing that will piss off every women out there?

Talking about other women!

This is a real buzz kill for 98% of women out there because really we don’t give a rats ass about how great you think you are and how ALL these women want you.
The fact is if these women were SO important they’d not be a part of your PAST.

I decided to ask some of my male friends what they thought of this behavior and see just what a guy’s response would be, To my surprise the guys were actually in agreement with me. *shock*

Some say it’s a guys insecurity that makes him do it.
Some said that guys who do that need to “Get Over Themselves”
A couple even told me to let tell women to let the “other” women have those men back.

So listen men/boys of the world, Talking about your ex girlfriends or how many women asked you out or what songs women dedicated to you are NOT ways to keep your current women/girl interested in you.
If anything your driving her away little by little and in the end the failed relationship will be your own bloody fault.
And face it, if you were in her shoes you’d not want to be hearing about how her other boyfriends were better then you or how they did this and did that…it would end up getting on your nerves as well.

So thinking your the best thing since sliced cheese is maybe something you should keep to yourself.
Women do not like guys who are full of it.
So ruffle your feathers all you want, you might up being the only bird checking yourself out in the end.

What Women Want: (And Men Too!)

Someone who makes us feel good. Makes us feel sexy and desired.

Someone who is willing to listen even if they don’t care about what we are talking about.

Someone who supports our goals and dreams and doesn’t cut us down for having them.

Someone who’s head and feet are firmly planted in reality, But who isn’t afraid to dream.

Someone who can pick up on when we’re having a bad day and try to help us through it.

Someone who respects not only us but our personal space.

Someone who is not afraid to show emotion.

Someone who is secure both emotional, physically and financially.

Someone who cares for others, not just themselves.

Someone who is strong so that when we fall apart we can fall apart into your arms.

Someone who’s affectionate with out being told to.

Someone who puts their partners needs ahead of their own.

Someone who is helpful and courteous.

Someone who’s honest and who doesn’t keep secrets with no games or bullshit.

Someone who see’s their problems and tries to solve them.

Someone who is willing to drop the issues and baggage.

Someone who chooses to live with a positive attitude rather then a negative one.

Someone who picks us up rather then puts us down.

Someone who doesn’t always have to be “right”.

Sadly most will see this “list” as someone who’s asking for “too much”.
But we’re not looking for Mr. Perfect (At least I’m not), Just someone who is willing to go the distance to show me they care so I know it’s someone worth devoting my time too.

Most don’t realize if you just treat a person (specially women) right they’ll be yours forever!
But play head games and fuck with someone’s emotions and there will forever be doubt and you can bet almost for sure that the relationship will fail.

Keep in mind ladies these same things apply to what a man would want as well.

People’s “needs” tend to get lost in the shuffle of the relationship dance.
Or we tend to settle when you were not completely happy.
Either one is going to cause chaos in a relationship specially if both parties involved don’t bother to talk openly and honestly about what’s going on.

Like I said this is just my own point of view, and you may not share it.
I’ve been around the block and picked up a few things in my many years on earth and sometimes I just feel like sharing whether people like it or not.

It’s not in my happy times nature to spew vulgar from my mouth, It only tends to pop out when something is troubling me or bothering me.
And these days my lordie EVERYTHING is bothering me!

I know it’s in part due to the fact that my pregnancy is causing hormone surges to race through my body, And it’s not helping that I’ve now been off my “crazy” meds for 4+ months!
Yes I said crazy meds, because to be honest I feel so friggin crazy right now and I KNOW for a fact that they really did help calm my thoughts and allowed me to process through my emotions at a better rate.

With out my medication my thought patterns seem to be aggressive and impulsive. I don’t think things through and tend to lash out a lot quicker then I would normally.
Don’t get me wrong I am not a friggin monster who will tare your face off with the slightest ignition but if pushed the wrong way I will tend to withdraw and become angry.
The worst part is; Is I tend to take it out on those who are closest to me and have nothing to do with what’s going on.
I have a difficult time telling those who really piss me off that THEY are in fact the ones who’ve pissed me off.

So if you ask me now if I am angry, then I will say yes to a degree.
I am so tired of listening to other people’s drama and shit, People who have no regard for anyone but themselves.
I might be a bitch but I always think of how my actions will directly effect those around me, and I try to not allow my bullshit to pull others down. Now if only others had that same sense of reasoning I would not be going off like a handful of friggin firecrackers everyday!

I don’t think people really understand that I am going through so much at the moment that I can not physically or emotionally handle their crap!
I have my own crap to wade through and to be honest it’s a LOT and getting through it is a day to day process so when  I am working hard to stay healthy for myself and my child it’s hard when others dump their shit on me too.
I am a good friend, Loyal to the end…I will be there for my friends when they need me.
But to take advantage of that and dump you crap ALL the time makes me want to get the f**k outta dodge.
And trust me when I can not longer handle your crap you’ll know it, cause you’ll be GONE from my life for good!
There is only so much one person can take before they say “I give up”, Only so many times a person can watch another one smack their head off a wall before they say “they are a lost cause”.

I’ve cut people out of my life before, and it was to protect myself so I am not afraid to do it again.

So if sometime down the road your no longer on my facebook, I am no longer emailing you or taking your calls or replying to your text messages. Don’t take it personally I am just more important then you.
That sounds so vain, But it’s a motto we should all live by.
Be a friend…A friend who is supportive and caring.
A friend who will listen and love.
Do what we can as a friend to help our friends through.
But in the end remember YOU are the most important and if a friend compromises your own well being then it’s time to let those friends go.
A real friend is not a friend if all they do is use you when they need someone to dump on.

That goes for me too, I’ve found myself lately saying sorry to my friends for dumping my crap on them.
I know it at times feels lonely but remember friends can only burden themselves so much before they themselves have had enough.

I was one of those “Dramatic” people he spoke about in his video, I always had something to say about someone else, or how I thought life was crap or so and so did this to me so I will do that to them, You name it if it was destructive I did it!
I kept blaming everyone else for my shit instead of taking a nice hard look at myself.

It’s not until I started to drive people away that I realized that uh oh maybe it is me?!?
And believe me if you throw out enough drama people have dramatic overload and want nothing more to do with you.
Life isn’t all about you, Well not JUST you anyway.
Sure life may throw curves your way but it’s eventually up to YOU to decide what to do with them….you can either become this big old drama queen making mountains out of mole hills where ever you go OR you can choose to take that negative and turn it into a positive.

I allowed the sexual abuse in my childhood to shape me for the longest time, I hated the world and almost everyone in it..I blamed everything that was bad on everyone else cause it couldn’t be my fault after all I was a victim!
Then one day when no one wanted to talk with me or hang out with me I realized I was holding on to anger and placing it upon people who’d done nothing wrong. I was allowing this negative event to shape my whole way of thinking.
I had to decide then; Live and Learn or Lay Down an Die?

I had to look at myself in the mirror to see the problem, But in seeing that I was the problem I also found the strength to find a solution!
I asked myself
-Why are you so hateful and hurtful to others?
-Why do you blame other people for your short comings?
-Why are you pushy and bossy and think everything has to go your way?
-Do you really think the world revolves around you???

They were HARD questions but one I had to really ask myself, because I was not a nice person I was filled on Dramatic Overload and I burst over and over.

However though it took time and I struggle even to this day  I am better for that day in the mirror.
I am kinder, nicer, more caring and loving.
I am less angry and don’t blame others when the blame should fall on me.

Are YOU in dramatic overload? maybe if you even think a little bit that you are then you should take a look in that mirror too, You never know you might learn something.
Because I’ll tell you the truth if your a dramatic person your more then likely driving people away from you right now as we speak….But the choice is yours you can be the “popular dramatic drama queen” who everyone secretly hates and really does not want to be around or you can be true to you and be free of the drama free to become an awesome person who everyone will want to know and learn from…your choice.

Sean’s Video and his other video’s can be seen on his channel:
http://www.youtube.com/user/Seanclinch#p/u/5/nW9O-maJFgU